I hate everything.
And if you took the time to wonder if that meant you, too, then yea, it does.
I hate that I have a midterm tomorrow that I didnt' start studying for until 2 hours ago and that I'm only halfway through the review for. I hate that I have an 8 a.m. class tomorrow (even though I enjoy the class, I hate the time).
Most of all I hate the Mo.'ian and my editor and the way they combine to make me feel like utter crap and make me reconsider my career choices. I loved journalism until I got to this point. And it's not like I haven't done reporting before...I have. In that obscure thing called "the real world" (no, stupid, not the sucky TV show).
But now I'm in this "class" (aka student slavery) and I feel like crap 97.6% of the time. Or I have no idea what is going on because no one tells me anything and my editor 'forgets' to publish my pieces, or edit them, or whatever.
I never hated reporting before this. And I never thought I sucked at writing before this. I don't know what to do or even what the problem really is. I just hate everything.
And I hate the stress that comes from being a full-time student and a 'full-time' reporter and a girlfriend and a daughter and a friend and a human being (not always in that order) and not ever knowing how to juggle what and feeling like I'm stumbling no matter what I do.
So again, I just hate everything.
