Katie

I just returned from spending the night(evening, whatever) with my old pal Katie (not from Turner). I have known Katie since, forever-ish, at least elementary, and, maybe because of that, maybe in spite of that, we have this really amazing and weird bond. We can not talk to each other for ages, so wrapped up in our own lives, then spontaneously call the other up, go have dinner, and fall right back into place like we never left, or, better yet, enriched by our time away. Seeing Katie, being near her, is like a recharge for some part of my soul that, unfortunately, none of my friends now can really fill. (Not to insult all of you, but, you just can't. Katie and I know each other so well, and have such different and yet eerily parallel lives, that we can talk for hours and make perfect sense, even when we have no real idea of what we are saying. After talking to her, I feel more secure in my own life, even though we may have just brought up more questions.)

We talked about the way guy friends relate to their chica friends, in a way totally different to the way a girl reacts to her girly friend.(Guy tries to fix it, girl lets it happen then comforts). We talked about college, and our anxieties and anticipation. We talked about sex, and how we don't know if what we feel sometimes is what 'we' feel or what we've been told to feel for so long that it has become some sort of automatic response...wondered together how we were supposed to know when we are really in love, when the time is really 'right' (and how we'll know), our guilt associated with sexuality, what 'virginity' really means, and generally our confusion with that part of our lives. We talked about her boyfriend situation, and my non-boyfriend situation.

We talked about all those things, and more, over a good dinner at Bennigan's, a long walk by moonlight, a drive around town, and an episode of 'Sex and the City.'

I feel...so renewed, and yet so curious about everything in my life.